I don't know where to start. But, I feel that I have improve much over these past months since I started drawing more than one year ago on deviantart. I'm not the kind of guy people would expect to be someone who could draw. In fact, I failed any art class I attended in the past ever since I was a child. I can't even draw a stick figure right and when I try to draw anything it looked like a splatter and spills. I really was that terrible before. I never thought I could draw. I hated and loathed any class involving art back then. I even tried to stay away from anything involving drawing as possible. As soon as I don't have to take mandatory art classes after high school, I never drew or attempted any art for years. BTW, the art was the only class that devasted my overall grade before. It was much worse than a 50% grade. Art was never in my mind since I was a kid. I can at least write though. So I usually stick to fanfic writing whenever I'm free. I'm also a big gamer back then too. In fact, my most skilled hobby was gaming. I write a lot before and it's usually anime fanfiction and some crossovers.
Then one day, a thought came to my mind that if I could write decently, why not express those ideas in image forms. I was very scared to attempt doing any drawing in the beginning. But then I thought, imagery is much stronger than words and many people would understand better if I draw what I thought than to write it down. With so much anime fanfic imagery bottled up in my head all these years, I decided, you know what, I'm going to start drawing no matter how pathetic it looks. I opened up the mangas I have and tried to draw as accurately as the characters in there. At first the characters I drew looked nothing like the manga characters. In fact, it looked more like blobs, goo, and splatters. Lol, I even attempted some coloring and now it looks like random mess. So my first few attempts was utter failure. In fact I failed so bad I cried and ripped every attempted drawings to pieces. I then bought a how to draw manga book. I tried to follow the steps in there but I never got it and failed every attempt with the same blob and splatter appearances. But then I thought, I'm not backing down I will try my best even if it will take me all nighters. So, whenever I'm not doing schoolwork or other obligations, I pulled out my how to draw manga book and try to draw. After a few weeks, little improvement but not much, at least my drawings resemble actual life forms now, but aquatic life forms nothing like an actual human being.
The early days of attempted manga drawings for me are very hard and brutal. Do remember, I do not have the natural abilities to draw so it was extremely tough. I would stay up every night, usually right after homework is done to practice some drawings. I have to give up my gaming hobby just for this. On breaks, I would spend every single second of my free time practicing manga. Specifically 80s manga arts. So I was always busy, if not school, housework, or work, its hours of brutal drawing practice. I usually have to forget computer games these times. Not completely, but a lot of it. I even sweated during my practices and my eyes would get red from the harsh training I put myself under on my free time. I even pulled all-nighters during breaks to hone my drawing skills. Eventually, I stopped training with the how to draw manga book and I started using pictures from manga, art books, and the internet. I trained to the point where I got a bruise on one of my fingers. I even attended a how to draw manga class, but the teachers were too nice. Even blobs are good in their eyes.
I have heard of deviantart back then, but I thought it was never the place I belong and I'm unworthy to touch this site. So, I decided to train more and more until I get something that looks human or a little similar to the manga pics I tried to copy. So I would train much harder for a year and seven months before I started showing up here. (Oh, I didn't tell you guys this but I've been training to draw for at least 2 years now. But, I never counted the first 1 year and 6 months since drawings from those times were soo bad you guys don't want to see them. In fact they looked deformed). So after that extra year and several months of some of the most brutal drawing training in my life, I showed up on this site. BTW, black rings around my eyes are visible in those times since I don't rest much during training. When I showed up on this site, I was given this account by a very generous user who abandoned this website to serve for life in the Kazakh armed force and to live a life of nationalism. So my first drawing was Lynn Minmay Borg.
That drawing, I felt good at the time, since it was the result of almost two years of brutal training. I was very glad that I can draw almost similar to anime characters. But, training doesn't stop there. So I continued training like before and occasionally post stuff here. Then, I moved to Virginia from California for pre-pharmacy training. So no drawings until at least December 2015.
I continued to train during Christmas break until I got a deadly food poisoning from Burger King. I was very close to death at the time. I was pale and moved very little. So no drawing activities until July 2016, since I was in recovery at the time. A miracle happened during the time, which is why I survived today. I wasn't only suffering from food poisoning. I also have to recover from high blood sugar, high blood pressure, high calcium, high cholesterol, and overweight. Also my heart my aching once in a while since I was eating fast food and Starbucks every day for many years. If it wasn't for that miracle, this account would be in the deviantart graveyard.
Anyways, I continued my harsh training on July after my recovery. I don't give up just because I'm not in 100% health. To make up for the time I didn't use to draw before, I doubled up my training time and my harshness during July and August. Even then, I still throw plenty of failed drawings in my trash can. The pics posted here in July and August 2016, were ones I find the most successful during my practices.
And here I'm today, I went from someone who can't draw a stick figure to someone who can draw manga characters fine now. However, I still feel that I'm still not a strong artist yet even with years of brutal training with lots of endurance. My goal is to become as good as seresere someday. That means more training is to come. The point is, I'm no natural artist, but that won't prevent my dream and for me, drawing is a true battle I face.
People who know me thinks that I can never draw btw.